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All things must pass....

So here it is....my final blog post. It's been great to form part of this blogosphere, but it's time to move house to another blog. It's not the end, but the beginning of another era. These posts will also migrate to the other blog...

http://moondustana.wordpress.com/

So please click away to your heart's content....if there's still anybody out there...

Peace, Love, and Beatles always.

Ana, meet Johari

So after over a year, here she is. Back on the blogosphere with...? Well, with a year's worth of bellyaches to spill out....Just kidding. No one wants to read about old rants...and the whole point of a rant is it helps to vent out while there's still an issue, right?

Now that I'm back on the rock, and have made an attempt at "settling in", whatever that implies, I am hoping to have more time to dedicate to painting and writing. Having signed a contract for an apartment last week, and having almost completed the write-up for my PhD, I am nearly at a point in my life when I can finally follow my heart and spend more time doing what makes me happy.

So what is it that I'm going to spend my time doing? Here's where the title of this post starts to make some sense.....I will take time to find what years of close friendship with Ana and Mia (anorexia and bulimia, for the uninitiated) have taken away. Friends, family, jobs, arts....all this was taken away, or put on the backburner, because of one unrelenting obsession. But now it's time to start over and reclaim what's mine. About time too, one may think. Well, I have always believed that if I'm going to do something, I have to do it well, or drop it altogether. So far I haven't had the energy, or courage for that matter, to face my fears. But things have been changing. All these major events going on in my life spurred me into actively wanting to close overdue chapters before starting afresh.

So here it is. My Johari window, as seen by my Ana-less and Mia-less self, and (if anyone is still out there to contribute) as seen by the blogreaders.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Moondustana

...oh, and this time I promise, it won't take me another year to post!

XXX

Brain colour....

This is hilarious!!! I didn't know brains had a colour....but, as I'm writing my thesis and any excuse for procrastination is welcome, I took the test and *drum roll* my brain is apparently purple.... Wow. My life has new meaning.....

Your Brain is Purple

Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic. You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense. Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

What Color Is Your Brain?

Happy Birthday, George...

It was 64 years ago, in Wavertree, Liverpool, that George Harrison, notably remembered as "the quiet Beatle" was born to Harold and Louise. He joined the Beatles, then known as The Quarry Men, in 1957, intially as a fill-in when one of the regular members couldn't make it. Eventually, he became a full-fledged member of the band....and the rest is history....

Beatles songs bearing the Harrison signature include favourites such as While My Guitar Gently Weeps, Something (which Frank Sinatra described as being the best love song ever written), and (my personal favourite) Here Comes the Sun. After the Beatles break up in 1970, George was the first Beatle with a successful solo career with his triple album All Things Must Pass topping the charts. Unfortunately, he was then sued by Lonnie Mack for plagiarism. "My Sweet Lord" was thought to be too similar to Mack's "He's So Fine". Mack won the case, and George was convicted for unintentional plagiarism. He made a great come-back with "This Song", which basically was a mockery of the trial.

It's hard to find an absolute favourite George Harrison song....as a solo artist (as well as with the Travelling Wilburys) he had many great hits. However, if I had to choose just one, it would have to be "I Live For You", from All Things Must Pass, Disc 1. It's not a very well-known song...but I just love it.

Anyways...this wasn't meant to be yet another Harrison biography page...merely a tribute to one of the world's best singers/songwriters of all time...a spiritual, warm man who's undoubtedly watching us from above.

Happy Birthday, George!

Help!! Not just anybody....HEEEELLLPPPPP

And once again....viva l-Beatles.

Why did I not take Literature at Uni???

Literature students read the books we read for pleasure as part of their course....and they dont have to bother about crappy chemistry. AND they're not thought insane for analysing books and finding their different levels....

I chose the wrong subjects...and I should have done something about it ages ago...when I first realised. I want to study something I am actually excited about; something I actually care about and enjoy....Do I care about chemistry? If someone were to call me tomorrow and say that science stopped existing as from yesterday not only would I not be sad....I'd actually be relieved. Relieved that I wouldn't have to play the part of the geeky chemist anymore. Happy to be finally rescued from my self-inflicted confines.....It's like I enjoy making decisions that are bound to have masochistic consequences.

Nevermind. Only the last few months of science then I dont need to speak to it ever again. Unfortunately Mrs Friggieri was right....and even more unfortunate is the fact that I didn't take any notice of what she told me. Too late. I'll finish this chapter in my book of days and then it will be closed forever. Don't worry. I'm not quitting uni. Not now. Doesnt mean I enjoy science...I never did...but Malta is Malta. Unless you're a science geek, doctor or nurse, engineer, architect or lawyer (or you're blonde) you're an under-achiever or, even worse, a housewife. Or....(worst case scenario)...a blonde housewife whose only goal in life shifts from being that of grabbing yourself a potential husband, to actually making yourself his wife, to the ultimate glorious task of turning into a baby-machine. Oh the joy.

So I guess I just have to secretly frown while everyone else thinks I care about molecules....or I could stay abroad, work in a bookshop and get by, and not give a rat's ass what people think...

Sorry....had to get it all out. Makes me want to not come home...I don't like crying over things like this. I don't like crying, in general. But I've been lying all this time. I only chose Science at O'Level because a teacher once told me I paid attention during Science lessons in Form 1. That was it. That was the only reason. One comment, from one teacher. And I've regretted it ever since. I never enjoyed it and, let's face it, was never any good at it. Maths I can do, because it makes sense to me. But I can't stand Biology, I absolutely hate Chemistry, and Physics makes me want to throw up. I could have taken the advice of the other teachers who said I should write books....or those who later on in life said I should switch to languages.....and who then also said (during my Pharmacy finals) that it's never too late to unleash one's true path....But what's my path? One thing just led to another...and here I am....

HELP!

All We Need is Love?

After a long break...here I am again. I've been to Malta for Christmas and New Year, met up with friends, family and cat....and did the usual "girl studying abroad visiting people" thing.

Back in Birmingham I'm basically trying to work as hard as I can to finish off this PhD as soon as possible. I officially have 8 months of lab work left... and usually people take between 3-12 months after that to write up....*sigh*

As the title may suggest, it does get a bit lonely here...what with gale force winds and all....but it also refers to the Beatles' new album...entitled "Love". :o)

Mixed feelings really. It's a cool mix of songs and it's one of those albums that you just have to sit down and listen to from beginning to end. It strikes me as the kind of mix that they would have released after a day of pissing about in the studio...which is a good thing I guess because it's an interesting take on some of the world's most influential tunes. I am still a traditionalist who loves "original" versions of songs, etc...but this is an interesting melange of unedited dialogue and songs merging into one another. Approved. I admit...I have to be in the mood for it, to enjoy it fully...but it's a good album.

The picture I put up today is a painting of mine. I copied a postcard of John Lennon in his "Give Peace a Chance" saga. Reason why I chose to copy this particular one? I don't really know...I suspect it's because he kind of resembles Jesus in this picture...so I thought it'd be funny. :o)

Take care, if there's anyone still out there!!!

Li
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